Adventures Of Motherhood

Have y’all ever been discouraged? Well, I have been. A lot lately actually. We see all these super happy Facebook posts and think they must have the best life. Nothing bad ever happens to them, they’re always so positive and upbeat about everything. Well, a lot of times, yeah, they may be happy in those picture perfect moments but they still have a lot going on that they don’t broadcast all over Facebook. I post happy things because I love my daughter and think/know that she is the cutest thing ever! And my husband, because I love him so much! And I love my family and I love living life with them. But that doesn’t mean that life is all happiness and good times. Yes, we try to make the best out of everything and enjoy everything we can, but we still have what’s really going on in life in the back of our minds. We’re saying “How are we going to make it this week?” Whether it’s finances or groceries or whatever it may be.

I’m a mom, I would love to stay home with my daughter and spend more time with my husband on his days off. But we can’t afford it right now, if we’ll ever be able to. I’m always posting happy and positive things on Facebook and cute and funny videos- because I want to make someone else laugh, maybe even make their day. Make someone smile when they’ve maybe been struggling to smile lately. Just because I post all happy and positive things, does not mean that nothing negative is happening at home or in life. Life is hard, I just don’t like to post about all the hard and negative things in life. We don’t need to share all the negative things to get attention or for someone to ask “What’s wrong?” just to say “Oh, I don’t want to talk about it.” or on the rude side and saying “Mind your own business.” – which if you were to say that, then it would be your fault for posting whatever it was that “wasn’t their business”. If you know what I mean.

I don’t want to post negative or depressing things on Facebook, people may be posting only happy and positive things on Facebook and everyone says social media is bad (which in some ways it is) and people are being fake because they only share the happy moments, but that doesn’t mean they’re fake. It just means they don’t want to share all the hard things in life. But EVERYONE goes through hard things in life.

We want to spread happiness and positivity. But just because that’s all that is posted, doesn’t mean that theres nothing going on in that family or that person. Everyone has battles that they’re going through that they don’t tell anyone about. Either because they can’t or they don’t want to because they don’t want others to see them that way and/or spread things about them about how they’re always being negative or just want attention. Sometimes people need attention, they need love. Maybe that person is thinking of ending their life later that day, and you wouldn’t know it because you’re too busy in your own world. You don’t want to talk to some random person who looks like they’re having a bad day because you may be having a bad day and think that someone should come up to you and see what’s wrong with you instead. You need to be there for others too. You could be that one person who convinces them to not take their own life. Even if they don’t tell you specifically that that was their plan. There are still battles being fought. Some alone. Don’t judge people so quickly. People are going through a lot more than what you think or see.

Just some thoughts that I’ve had lately.

I have started a business, it is direct sales. It is not some pyramid scheme, it is real. And it is amazing!  I REALLY want to be able to be a stay at home mom, and it helping me. That is why I am going to work really hard with the shampoo business. There are so many women doing direct sales, when you buy from them, it is going to help THEM and their FAMILY, not some celebrity. Help them. I chose the shampoo business, because everyone washes their hair, everyone uses shampoo. If you want to know more about the business, send me a message. I’d love to talk to you about it. Thanks for reading this post. This is my family. This is why I am doing what I do. Why I am trying to work this business, to help my family!

Is it really worth it? Is what we do really worth it? Do we even know what we are doing? I’m not talking about motherhood right now. I’m just talking about life, in general. Sometimes we do things just because, and have no reason for doing them. Maybe we did at first, but now we just do it. I love life, but lately, I feel like I have no motivation to do much anymore. In the past few months, it’s been a bit depressing, for lack of a better word. I’ve been trying to be happy and let things that bother me just roll off me, but it’s been hard.

I want to work, I want to be able to stay at home and work. Still bring in income to provide for the family and pay the bills. It’s hard to find jobs that one CAN really stay at home with and still bring in an income. A decent income. I have tried so many things. I am still trying different things. I’ve tried contacting people and not getting anything back, and I’m just on the verge of giving up.

I’m usually the one lifting others up and encouraging and telling others not to give up, but this time it is me. I’m the one about to give up. Have you heard the quote “The prettiest smile hide the deepest secrets. The prettiest eyes have cried the most tears. And the kindest hearts have felt the most pain.”? I’m not saying all those things are me (the prettiest eyes, and smile and heart and such), but I do try to be there for everyone, if they need a friend and someone to talk to and such, I’m there. I go out of my way for people, and some of them know it and take advantage of it. Unfortunately. But anyway, I have things going on to, I need to be encouraged too. I feel pain too, I just don’t tell anyone and I don’t really talk to anyone about it because I don’t want to bother anyone with my troubles and/or I don’t want to add something to someone else while they’re going through something. Even if that’s what happens to me, and I just hide it. I don’t want them to have to hide what they’re going through with me, just because I bring some insecurities or something that I’m feeling.

That’s what friends and family are for. To be there for you when you need it. They are there for more than just that, but that’s one of the reasons. Life isn’t always easy. I’m being very transparent here. I don’t tell many people this, I just really could use a friend right now. But you know what, I probably still won’t share this post, because I don’t want to bother anyone or make anyone feel like I’m super depressed and losing my mind. Which I’m not losing my mind, I promise. Everyone just has some rough days. We all need something to talk to, to be there for us. Not have everyone go to you for everything they have and need to talk to someone about. That someone is usually me. Which i don’t mind. I love helping people and being there for others.

Sometimes, I just need someone to be there for me, even if it’s just to give me a hug (and a million dollars haha) and tell me it’s going to be okay. I was kidding about the million dollars part. Mostly! 😛

Ever feel like you just lack some motivation? Like, you have motivation, but you don’t, at the same time!? Like there are so many things that I want to do. I want to do so many things; they don’t allow me to stay home, and they consist of more schooling and more money. Money that we don’t have, and schooling that we don’t exactly have the money or the time for. I would love to go back to school for Forensics or music, or photography! haha. But that just isn’t possible. Plus, they’re all completely different from each other. Have pretty much nothing in common with each other. Photography can kind of have something to do with forensics, with taking pictures of evidence and such, but yeah. I have so many interests, that it’s just a bit hard. And I’d love to be able to do something from home, but there isn’t too much that you can do from home and make a decent income with. But I’m still trying. I’m not giving up, even though I may want to. I am trying to be strong for my family.

Yesterday was Father’s Day, and my husband is a great daddy to our little girl! I love watching them together! They play together! He’ll chase her around the house and she just giggles and laughs! And I love it! I love creating these memories together! I really am blessed!!!

I do talk to my husband, we just both have a lot of things going on in life. All good, it’s just been a rough year. But God is Still Good! We are blessed! I have been blessed with my amazing family! To be honest, I never thought I would have a family of my own. But God had other plans and I am so glad He did! I love my family so so much! They are some of the most precious things to me in my life! I would do anything for them! 

I am doing okay, I could just use some prayers, if you all don’t mind! Thank you! Well, this blog post did start off kind of rocky and depressing, but I am doing better now. It helps to actually talk about it and yes, even share it. And when I think of my family, I know that even though everything may not be going exactly as we planned or wanted, it will all work out. and I have an amazing family by my side! God has a plan for everything! And if you all have any prayer requests or just want to talk, don’t hesitate to message me! 🙂 Hope you all have a great week! I hope this encourages someone also! It may be hard now, but don’t give up! God is there with you, Always! And if you feel like you don’t have anyone to talk to, talk to God! And if you still need someone to talk to, I’m here!! Anytime!! I love you all!!!

Sometimes in life, we feel as though no one cares about us or what we do with our lives. Have you ever felt like no matter what you do, no matter how long it took you to do it, or how much courage it took you to do it, that still no one cares?

Are you a people-pleaser? Is the reason you do many of the things you do, if not everything, is to please a specific person? If your answer is yes, then this blog post is for you. Many times throughout my life, I have only wanted a few things. That is for someone to care about the things that I accomplished, even if it wasn’t always the best, but it was my best. And for someone to be proud of those things. And of me.

I was, sometimes I still am, a very big people-pleaser. I just want to make others happy, doing what they want me to do, even if it makes me miserable and/or it’s something that I don’t want to do. Whether it’s what I want to study in school or not study in school, what I want to do with my life. Yes, those things matter, but it also matters what I want to do and what my interests and passions are.

Personally, I have an interest in many things. Some that are completely different from another thing that I’m interested in. For example, music, criminal justice, photography, and children. Those are all things that I’m interested in and they don’t really have anything in common with the other. Photography can have to do with criminal justice, but that’s about the only thing, and children – taking pictures of children. Which I love to do also!

I do photography as a hobby now, and if someone wants pictures done, I will take them for them! I love taking pictures and capturing those special moments for them to look back on later on in life!

I have a family of my own, a husband and a little girl! We also have two dogs who are huge babies! But we love them to death! Our little girl is loving the dogs, and they love her!

We are doing everything we can to get out of debt and pay everything off. It is sometimes hard to enjoy life when you have bills after bills that come up that are due or overdue. You can’t afford to do anything, but we try to do things so that we won’t have just the bills and sadness and stress to look back on. We make memories. We can always make more money, but once a moment is gone, it’s gone. Make time for memories. Not just paying bills, and working to live. Yes, working is important, but so is living.

Sometimes we need to take some time, and just enjoy life. Go out to the park and walk, take lots of pictures (even silly ones), play in the rain (if it’s rainy but not storming- be safe!), play in the mud after its rained. You can always take a shower later.

MAKE MEMORIES!!!!!

Like I said earlier, once the time is gone, it’s gone. You can’t get it back. You may be in a little or a lot of debt, but it will still be there after you go make some memories with your family. You never know how long you have. Don’t regret not doing something, while you have the time.

And if you don’t really have time, MAKE TIME!

And when you are proud of someone, tell them that you are proud of them. Support them. And tell them that you support them. Show your support. I have been so blessed with the friends that I have that truly support me. Life is hard. But that doesn’t mean you can’t take some time (and money, if necessary) to enjoy some things with your family. Take that time and that money, enjoy it with your family. Don’t take that time for granted. I have been blessed with the family that God has given me. I am so thankful for my husband, our daughter and even our dogs. Our dogs know when we are sad, they will come up next to me and snuggle with me when they see me down and crying. They are the most loving animals!

I don’t know if this has helped anyone, I hope it has at least encouraged somebody. Everyone is going through something similar, if not the same thing. God is Good. He gives you exactly what you need and who you need exactly when you need it/them. I thank God everyday for Brandon!

Thank you all for reading this, and for supporting my blog. Life has been hectic, and I am trying to get my blog back up and going again!

I’m sure many, if not all of us, would love to be a stay-at-home mom. I would LOVE to be a Stay-At-Home Mom. I cannot wait till I can be.

I’ve recently started a new job; a nightshift job. It works better with my husbands work schedule. It is long hours, and being at night, and everything, but it won’t be forever.

I hate leaving my family at night, even though what we would be doing is sleeping and such; but hey, sleep is important too. I’ll get maybe 3-4 hours of sleep a day on the days that I work. It’s not even that I get tired at work, sometimes I am, but instead of being sleepy/tired, my feet hurt, or my knees or something.

Tonight, I worked a half-shift, it was voluntary overtime; and we could do a whole shift or a half shift. Since I had worked the four nights before, I thought I would just work half instead. I get home, and my husband is still awake, he was waiting till I got home, then we shortly went to bed. Well, I tried. I thought I would be able to fall asleep, but I was wrong. I guess I’m used to being up at this time now. So now I am writing this since I have had absolutely no time to write my blog. And honestly, I miss it. I miss writing.

I don’t know about you all, but writing helps me relax. Maybe after I write this blog post, I’ll be able to go to sleep! I guess we will see!

Working moms have two jobs, technically. They have their job that they go to for a paycheck to help support her family, and then she has the one at home of being a wife and mother. Okay, I guess she has three jobs, in a way – her away-from-home job and being a wife and mother.

Sometimes I feel like I’m failing at my jobs. My away-from-home job is a different. My jobs being a wife and mother….I feel like I fail those a lot, if not daily. I try to be the best mom I can be to our precious daughter. I try to be the best wife to my amazing husband.

I don’t always do the dishes everyday, I don’t always clean the house – although I try, but since we have a mobile (crawling) baby, it’s a bit harder to keep the house clean! We got to have toys on the floor for her to play with; she loves the dogs, the dogs love her! She really is a happy baby! She is a good baby, which does make it a little easier to be a good mother. When she’s teething, it’s a little more difficult, just in the way, that I wish I could take her pain for her. I don’t like seeing or knowing that she’s in pain and not really being able to do much about it. We have teething gel, but I don’t think it really helps that much. What are some things that you do that help with teething?! Any suggestions are welcome!

And then, there’s being a wife! I love both jobs of being a mother and a wife! I love being a wife! Sometimes it’s hard only because I want everything to be perfect, I want the house to be spotless when he comes home from work, I want all the laundry to be done (I’ve been procrastinating with that lately). Once I get the laundry done, I feel so accomplished that I take a little break and maybe watch a TV show or something. Which I probably shouldn’t do because one episode turns into two, three, or more episodes. When I know there are other things I could be doing to clean the house and such. Especially now that I’m working nightshift, I only have that time during the day to clean, and depending on how Anna (the baby) is doing – Feeding her, changing her diapers, playing with her, etc. She usually does pretty good though. Dishes – I have been HORRIBLE with the dishes lately. I’ve let them pile up more than I should. My husband has helped so much.

I’m going to go a little off with this blog post. I know it is a “Mommy” blog, but the Daddy is often not mentioned. The father does so much too. Since I have started my new nightshift job, my husband has done so much. He has gotten up with her at night to feed her if need be, even on the days that he works. He has to get between 4:00-4:30am, and I was the one who usually got up with her, especially on the days that he worked. But now he has to because I’m not home to do it. He has been more exhausted than normal, because even when he didn’t work, I usually got up to take care of Anna so he could sleep!

Husbands and Fathers are super important. Every child needs a father. If the father isn’t a huge part of the child’s life anymore, then they at least need a father figure, someone they can talk to, if they need to. Fathers are important to a child! I am loving watching Brandon and Anna together. When I see him playing with her, talking to her, I fall more in love with him! Seeing the way she looks at her daddy, smiles so big and laughs, it makes my heart melt.

I have been blessed with the best! God has been so good to me! He gave me an amazing husband and the most beautiful daughter! He blessed me with great in-laws! They have been there for us, when we needed a date night, or just wanted some time! They love having their time with her, being grandparents for the first time! They love it! Anna has been and is so spoil..um, I mean, loved! Anna is very loved! We can’t get enough of her! I can’t get enough of her smiles and her giggles and laughs! I may take more pictures and videos than I need, and they may be similar to some that I took on other days, but I will treasure each and every one of them!

I have been blessed with the best parents I could have asked for! My parents have always  supported me, they have been there for Brandon and I! I wish we lived closer, but we do live closer than we did last year, which is nice! My parents are amazing parents! They will be married for 42 years this month! I cannot wait to be married to Brandon for that many years and more! We will have so many memories to look back on! We already do! We have made so many, and we have many many more to make!

I am so proud of my husband! That may sound like a childish thing to say about an adult, but it really isn’t. You can be proud of someone no matter how old they are and I am super proud of Brandon! He is a very hardworking man, trying to give us the very best he can.

Married life is amazing, it’s the best, BUT….it’s not always rainbows and sunshine. There are arguments and disagreements, and they don’t always end happy, per se. But we never go to bed angry. We talk things through.

Something I recommend for you to do with your spouse is talk to them. Tell them what you need from them, if you’re not getting something you need. Since my husbands and my schedule has been changed recently due to my new job, things have changed around the house and marriage a little too; because of time. Time that we don’t have together anymore because I’m at work at night. Night time is when we would have relax time, we’d sit on the couch, snuggle up and watch something together. We can’t do that as much as we’d like to anymore. We talked about what we need from each other, whether it’s more help around the house or what. Brandon has helped so much though. He really has!

Some days I’ll come home from work and the dogs are very protective, so when they hear the door or something outside, they like to bark. And that will sometimes wake up Anna. Brandon will take care of Anna, so I can get some sleep for work the next day; depending on if he works that day or not, I will take care of Anna so he can sleep. I usually get home shortly before he leaves for work, unless I get off early, which happens sometimes. But otherwise, I get home when he’s getting ready for work. I won’t always go to sleep shortly after I get home either. I’ll make Brandon something for breakfast before he goes to work, if he works that day. If he isn’t working, and Anna is awake, I’ll take care of her while Brandon sleeps. Or if he’s still in bed and Anna is still asleep, I’ll just get in bed and go to sleep! It varies with what is going on; as you can tell, our schedule is very different at the moment, and we’re still adjusting. But we’re doing just fine! I have an amazing little family! God is Good!

So this post was a little bit different, and kind of all over the place and a bit on the long side! Sorry about that! It’s been awhile since I’ve written, so I guess I tried to get it all in one post! If you read the whole thing, thank you!

During pregnancy, our bodies change so much. We grow, we get hormonal, we get cranky easier, we cry easier and after some of the silliest things.

We get stretch marks. Shortly after giving birth, I saw my stretch marks, and I wanted them so badly to go away. Yes, I saw them during the pregnancy too, I’m just talking about after giving birth right now. Anyway, I saw my stretch marks, wanted to do anything to get rid of them. Knowing all the moms who used creams and sold creams to those wanting to get rid of their stretch marks.

I used to want to get rid of my stretch marks, I didn’t find them attractive, I didn’t think my husband would find me that attractive anymore, either. But we’ve talked about them a couple times. And my husband is so right. Stretch marks say so much. They tell a story. One of my favorite stories of all time! My pregnancy! Giving birth to our precious baby girl! I’m not trying to say that getting rid of your stretch marks is a bad thing; if you don’t want them, try to use the creams and such to get rid of them, that is your decision! I support you! But it’s not for me!

I look at my stretch marks, and I LOVE my stretch marks. I didn’t before, but the more I think about it, I really DO Love my stretch marks. I’ll occasionally put some lotion on but that’s it. I’m not trying to get rid of my stretch marks. I wasn’t going to share it, and even though I don’t usually share things like that, but thought I would. I found a couple.

Even just showing you these makes me a little uncomfortable, but everyone gets stretch marks, especially when pregnant. Women are usually embarrassed about their stretch marks. I’m not! I’m also not going to just go around everywhere and show everyone my stretch marks, but I’m not embarrassed about them. They are a part of my story. My daughter’s story.

Another part of pregnancy, well some pregnancies, is the incision. If you get a Cesarean, it means that you will have an incision after giving birth. Yes, I have an incision, I had a C-section. It wasn’t what I wanted, but it what was necessary at the time. For the first few months, I hated my incision, I hated what it looked like. My husband said he liked it, because it reminded him of how our daughter came into the world. Not that we needed the reminder! But it is a nice reminder. I have come to like my incision also. (No, I am not posting a picture of my incision) – a picture of my stretch marks is something I don’t really like to share, but stretch marks are a part of pregnancy. I have to come to love all of it!

Pregnancy wasn’t always amazing. Having to get up multiple times during the night to go to the bathroom, being sick for a few weeks around Christmas (at least, it was for me). But pregnancy was amazing at the same time. I loved feeling those kicks, although they did hurt at times, but I wouldn’t have changed them for anything. Feeling her move was incredible!

Looking at her as I write this post, I still can’t believe that I’m a mother and that I grew her inside of me. God is awesome! That He would create a woman’s body to be able to grow another human being. It wasn’t always easy and beautiful, but I did love it! Every time I see her smile, when I see her kicking her feet so quickly and hard, I imagine that that is what she did when she was inside of me, (by the way, she kicks hard) – on the outside too!! When she sees me or her daddy, she just automatically gets the biggest smile on her face – something I will never tire of seeing!!!

She is almost SEVEN months old! It is crazy to believe that she’s been on the outside for seven whole months! Before we know it, she will be a year old! I’m going to cry that day, just saying!! Although I don’t want her to grow up so fast, I’m excited to watch her grow into a beautiful young lady! God has been so good to us!

Thank you so much for reading my blog, it means so much to me! Share it with your family and friends! Keep us in your prayers, if you will. You are also in mine!

All we are doing anymore, to moms, to dads, to anyone is discouraging them. Making moms feel guilty for not spending enough time with their children, or not keeping the house clean for their husband, or being “lazy” because cleaning house and taking care of children, even though we love it, it can be very exhausting…etc. We keep telling moms and dads that they’re not doing enough for their family.

We can’t be happy for each other anymore. Someone wants to do something to help better provide for their family, and they get told that they’re not thinking it all through. That they’re doing the completely wrong thing. They can’t just say “I’m proud of you!” Or “Do what you think is best for you and your family. We will support you, no matter what!”

I feel like no one is supporting anyone anymore. There’s no more support, just discouragement and tearing others down, instead of lifting them up.

I look at my daughters face every day, and all I want is the best for her. God has been so good to us already. We are in the process of some things, hopefully they will work out. My husband and I think through everything before we do it; we make sure that all the ‘i’s are dotted, all the ‘t’s are crossed before we do anything completely. We don’t do things out of haste, not super important things. We are a family, we just want what is best for us and our little family. We need to provide for our little girl. We want her to have the best that we can give her. She means everything to us.

Sometimes I’ll just watch her sleep, and think about what she will want to do when she gets older. I think about her growing up; and how she’s already growing up so fast. She’s almost SIX months old! Half a year! Time seriously flies!! We blink and it’s already been six months! All we want is the best for our little girl, and our future children. We will probably do things that others don’t like, but they are our decisions, and we are doing what is best for us and our family.

This blog post is a little bit different than my others, but it’s just what has been on my heart lately. It gets on my nerves when others can’t be happy for someone else who are just trying to better provide for their family. Even if it means doing something that others don’t like. It’s not always about them and what they want. It’s what best for us and what we need. If someone doesn’t like where they’re at and if they’ve tried different things to make them better but there is nothing else, so they try something else…they get upset and think about themselves. I don’t mean this in a bad or mean way, it’s just that sometimes people have to do what is best for them, even if some people don’t like the idea.

I just wish people would be more supportive towards others and what they want to do, especially if they are trying to better themselves and for their family.

Please pray for my family, that everything will work out as it should. 🙂 Thank you so much!

I’m exhausted… and I feel like a terrible mother and wife because I’m so exhausted and sometimes don’t feel like doing anything. Like at all. I know everyone has their moments, but I still feel like the worst person in the world. My husband deserves so much more, and I feel like such a disappointment to him, as a wife. I’m not going to give up, but sometimes I feel like it.

Have you ever been just so exhausted, you’re not even sure if you’re functioning correctly? Well, sometimes you feel like that, especially when you’re a mom. I have been so exhausted, that I literally don’t feel like doing anything. I know I should, but I usually choose not to do anything. I want to just relax and do nothing. That’s usually the time that our baby decides to cry, wake up or just decide she wants to be held, and what not.

Sometimes I want to come home and just do nothing, have nothing to clean, literally nothing to do. But It’s never going to happen; not anymore. I love Anna, and saying all this will probably make me sound like a horrible mom. I love my family, I love my husband, our little girl!! They are both the most precious things to me in my life. I wouldn’t give them up or trade them for anything.

Not only is being a mom super exhausting, but it is also super rewarding. If we don’t work at something, what do we get from it? Usually nothing. Being a mom is awesome! It means less sleep, but it also means having a chance to have a legacy, having fun with your daughter or son. Getting to watch them grow and reach those milestones, although it is hard to watch them grow, it is also easy and fun to watch them grow.

Our little Anastasia is growing up so fast, but that is what children do. They grow. Everything grows at some point. Sometimes I feel like she is growing like a weed (super fast and every day). I feel like if I blink, I will miss it. And I know that in the blink of an eye, she will be going off to college, and finding a husband, and moving to a new home to start her own family. But we will be there for her every time we can.

It is still crazy to think sometimes that I am a mom; but it is amazing! I honestly never thought I’d be here. A wife. A mom. It is all a dream. But It’s also not a dream, it’s real. God has been so good to me and my little family. He blessed me with the best parents I could have ever asked for. And I hope that we are half of what my parents have been to me, to our little Anastasia!

They say the first year of marriage is always the hardest. Which it was rough at times, but we made it through. Marriage is important to us. It’s not a 50/50 thing, it’s a 100/100. We each give 100%, we don’t give less. We do have a little one during that first year which didn’t make it easy, but we wouldn’t trade her for anything. We love our little Princess.

Do you ever wish that you could go back and change something? Whether it was something you said or did, the way you said it, or that you even said it at all? Even if it was just recently…you know you shouldn’t have said it. I’ve been having those recently…but God is so Good! We have been so blessed in our marriage, in our family. I love Brandon so much!

We have the cutest pups who love Anna so much. They just want to be near her now and make sure she’s okay. Especially the bigger one, we’re pretty sure she’s going to be Anna’s dog once she gets big enough to play with the dogs. 🙂

Our pups love her!! They’re very protective of her! As are we! We are so blessed, not even kidding.

I always say at the end of my blogs, that if there’s anything you want me to pray for you about, I will…And I’m still saying that, I just would like y’all to pray for us also; if you think about it. We would appreciate it so much. Thank you! I love you all, and thank you so much for reading this and for supporting me! Maybe someday I’ll be a ‘famous’ blogger! 😛

Marriage. Some people think it’s just this thing that two people do when they love each other. Marriage is so much more than just loving someone so much that you want to be with them for the rest of your life. Yes, that’s part of it, but that’s not the whole thing.

Marriage isn’t always easy. There will be arguments and disagreements; there will be awesome moments and times with your spouse, too. Marriage is work. A lot of people think that once you’re married, you’re free to do whatever you want to do. Well, 1) kinda, but not really. Because now you have a lifelong partner to talk with and communicate with, and if you’re not in ‘sync’ with them, then comes a lot of miscommunication – which is not a good thing.

Yes, Marriage is an awesome thing! I love marriage! It’s also important that you find the right person! You get in a relationship to learn more about that person, and don’t just ‘date’ to date and mess around, date with the purpose or intention of marriage.

Marriage is getting up early for work, possibly coming home later, working extra hours, paying bills, making dinner, cleaning house, sleeping (unless you have a baby!😜), it’s not just living with another person. You have to work. Communicate with that person. If you don’t communicate, what happens? It can start in nonending arguments and fights, and usually ends in divorce…which is not a good or a happy thing.

When Brandon and I met, I had no idea that we would be where we are now. But I couldn’t be more thankful for who God has given me! And He blessed us with a beautiful baby girl! She brightens up our lives so much! She may wake us up at night, but she won’t be this little forever.

When I look at Brandon, I can’t help but think how lucky and blessed I am. God really does give you the best! And He gave me the best when He gave me Brandon! ❤️

I kind of never thought I’d get married and be a mom. I always wished and hoped that I would. And I couldn’t be happier that I am married to Brandon and a mom to our beautiful Anastasia! It’s not always lemons and sunshine, but it is always worth it. All the hardships, all the trials, it makes us stronger together. * That makes me think of the Superman/Supergirl symbol- that means “Stronger Together”. 😝 but seriously, Brandon and I have grown so much since we got married, even since we met. We have grown stronger together, and because God brings us even closer than I thought we already were.

God shows us new things every day. His mercies are new every morning. He gives us so much more than we deserve.

I can talk to Brandon about things that I never thought I’d really be able to talk to anyone about. I’m so thankful for the man He gave me in Brandon! I can trust him with everything.

If you can’t trust each other, than why did you marry in the first place? Trust is a very important quality in a relationship, whether it’s just a friendship or more than a friendship.

Brandon and I have been through a lot while being together, but like I said earlier, we come out even stronger together! I cannot wait to see him with Anna (Anastasia) as she grows up, and our (Lord-willing) future children! God has been so good to us! There are struggles, but God is always there.

I see Brandon with our little girl and my heart just melts. She smiles the biggest smile towards him, and I just…I tear up (happy tears) just thinking about it! It is a perfect and awesome moment to catch and just treasure forever. He says I take a lot of pictures, which I do- I admit! But when we look back at all the pictures I take, he’ll be thanking me! 😝

Marriage is a beautiful thing! I am so so thankful for Brandon! I couldn’t imagine being married to anyone else! He really is the one for me! Forever and always!

I know this blog post was a little on the mushy and sappy side this time, but there are just too many marriages breaking, and a reason is because people just don’t care anymore. They don’t care about the important things anymore. They just care about what they want, and once they get it, they’re done. They can’t and/or won’t commit to just ONE person. I have found my one person, and will forever be my one person! We have learned so much, and we are still learning things about each other!

I am so proud of my husband, he has gone through so much, and he’s still strong, and still going forward. We have tough times in life, tough and toxic relationships, but we get through. Sometimes we stay with the toxic relationships, even though we know we should get out of it, but we have our reasons for staying. Such as, “It’s been so long, I don’t want to feel like I wasted all that time, just to start all over again.” – that one was me. I know it wasn’t wasted time, although it may feel like it, but even though it was different, I did learn and grow through it. I have been so blessed with Brandon! I know I’ve said that a lot, but it’s so true.

I know this post is a bit long, and if you’ve read the whole thing, thank you! It’s just a little bit of my heart about marriage and relationships.

If you’re in a relationship you know you shouldn’t be in, for whatever reason, don’t be afraid to get out of it. If you need to, talk to someone, a pastor, a friend who is a good influence and will tell you the truth and won’t sugarcoat things. And get out of there. I’m praying for you. If you need to talk, or need a friend, have prayer requests, don’t hesitate to let me know. Thank you so much for reading!

Have an awesome day! And an awesome weekend! 😊

Being a mom is not a “half-hearted” thing. It is an all or nothing. If you’re not going to put much into being a mom, you shouldn’t really be a mom. If you were just messing around, and don’t want children, don’t do it. Or at least put the baby up for adoption, or maybe you have a friend or family member that has wanted children but can’t, give the child to them. Someone who will put everything into the child to make sure they have a good home, and someone who will take their time for the baby!

I’m not saying that you won’t put the time in, if it were to happen, I’m just saying that it takes a lot of work to have a child and to be a mom. It’s not easy. It is very worth it, but it’s not always easy. It will get harder as they get older, in their teenage years. My little girl is only a little over three months old, but I know it gets harder in the teenage years.

I wasn’t always the best daughter, and yet, my amazing mom never gave up on me. She was always there for me, even though I disappointed her many times, I’m sure. I’m so thankful for my mom (and dad)!! They have been amazing parents and grandparents! 

When my mom was here, when we were waiting to have our baby at the hospital. She was there for me. She was there when we went out walking up (a ton) of hills. But we did have fun with it! We laughed, we made memories. My mom (and dad) aren’t big picture takers. But I try to take a picture with them every chance I get, even if it’s just through FaceTime and I take a screenshot. I love those memories.  I will cherish them forever. 

When my mom was here, after our precious Anastasia came, and after being in the hospital five days after and recovering, and finally being able to have Anastasia (“Anna”) in our room after being discharged from the NICU – my mom was finally able to see the baby in person! I love seeing my mom holding a little baby! And it meant even more to me to see her holding my little girl. I took so many pictures of them together! I take a lot of pictures anyway! I love taking pictures, and having those memories on print! We may remember them later, but I love looking at the still-picture of little Anna smiling up at my mom! It seriously melts my heart! And smiling up at her daddy! I love it! There are no words to describe what we felt when we first our baby on the outside. And when we could hold her for the first time. Really hold her!

Brandon couldn’t hold her in the NICU for the first day or two, only I could for skin-to-skin contact. One night we had a male nurse, and he allowed Brandon to hold her, and to see his face when he got to hold her… Even before he held her, when. the nurse said he could hold her, his face just lit up like a Christmas tree (when all the lights work haha)! And to see him holding his daughter, our daughter…my heart melted! Brandon is such a great daddy! It takes more than just a mom to be a parent. Children need both parents in their lives.

When they don’t have both parents in their lives, the child(ren) miss it. They always have questions about why they don’t have a mom or dad, and where they are and what not. Yes, there are some great single parents out there, and there are legitimate reasons for why some are single parents – they may have lost their spouse unexpectedly, and what not. There are reasons for it, but a child NEEDS BOTH parents.

I love my husband so much, and I fall even more for him when I see him with our daughter! Even if we didn’t have little Anna, nothing would change how I feel about him. Brandon is my person. I am so thankful for him, I wouldn’t trade anything for him. Brandon and Anna are my family! 

It’s still weird, sometimes, that I actually have my own little family. But it’s one of the best things ever!! I may not always be the best mom, but I will always do my best and give it everything I have! Being a mom and wife – I give my everything to! I hope one day, when Anna grows up and she becomes a mom someday, she will be able to look back and say that I was the best mom, like I do with my mom. And that Brandon was the best dad! We may not be perfect, but we are doing our best! And we will ALWAYS do our best!

We are so thankful for our little girl! I thank God for her and for Brandon every day!!! I am so blessed! God is So Good!!!

Again, thank you for reading my blogs, I know I’ve been a little behind the past few weeks, but I hope to get back in the swing of things and write more. If you have any questions or just want to talk, need a friend, have any prayer requests, I’m here for you.

Have a great day!!

Okay, so I don’t know about you, but people who are fake, hypocritical, two-faced….they annoy me. They annoy me so much that I really do not want to be around them. At all. Especially when you can tell that they are fake, and they are pretending like everything fine, and that they aren’t fake, it just bothers me.

I used to be fake, in a way. I used to fake being happy, when I was probably the most miserable I had ever been. “Fake it till you make it”, right? Only if you keep faking it, you really aren’t making it, are you? Faking it is not a way to live. It’s barely even living. We don’t want to fake anything. Fake being happy, fake being a the sweetest person or faking that you like everyone when in reality you don’t like that many people at all; but yet you fake to like them anyway. I know a couple people like that, and all I can think when I see it is that they must not be happy at home, must not have a happy life, and must be really miserable. Thing is, I don’t know what is going on their life, or why they are the way they are, all I can do is pray for them.

Being real…sometimes we, as moms, pretend to be happy when we are actually really exhausted, and just want a break. We want to get out of the house. No, I am not pretending to be happy right now, I am very happy with my husband and my little girl, and our family! Life isn’t always easy, but I am happy with my family! God has blessed me so much!!

Moms have a very busy and non-ending workload. Moms are never ‘off the clock’. We are always clocked in. Some days are easier than others, but no matter what, we can’t give up. We have a husband and a child depending on us.

I just want to remind us that we need to be real with people. if we have a problem with someone, we should talk to that person; don’t let it keep going and your dislike for that person get worse and what not. Talk to them. If you can tell that they don’t like you or something, talk to them, ask them if there was something you did or whatever the problem is. Be real with people. Talk to someone. There are people you can talk to. Talk to your husband about what is bothering you, tell him that you’re tired and would like a break, tell him whatever you need. Take a hot bubble bath, take a little nap while he watches the baby, tell him what you need. It will be okay. For better or for worse. Right?!

I know it has been awhile since I have blogged, but mom life got a bit busy! I will try to do better though! Writing is something I do, or try to do, to relax. Writing helps me get things out! Sometimes I think I write better than I talk, if that makes sense. I know I’m kind of all over the place in this blog, I’m sorry. My mind is kind of all over the place tonight.

But on a happier note, our little girl is two months old! She turned two months old yesterday! It’s crazy how it has already been two months! There’s been a lot less sleep and a lot of tears, but I wouldn’t trade them for anything! I love my husband, and I love our little girl! Sometimes it is still hard to believe that I’m a mom, but I love it! Especially that I’ll be celebrating Mother’s Day this year! This time last year, I did not think that I would be celebrating it the next time it came around. But I love my little family! God has blessed us so much!

This is a shorter blog than my others, but I just want to remind you, maybe even challenge you – be real this week (and every week). If there is someone you think doesn’t like you or maybe it’s something that you don’t really like, talk to them. Just a thought. If there is anything you need me to pray for, I’m here. Send me a message.