When I found out I was pregnant the first time, I was shocked. I didn’t know what to think. I was excited, but I was nervous. I didn’t think I’d be able to do it; the pregnancy, the labor and then being the mom part. I was 22 when I got pregnant, which isn’t super young, but some prefer to wait a little longer. I always dreamed of being a mom, but never thought it would happen when it did. I’m glad it did though!
It was June 25th, 2017, when we officially found out we were pregnant. If it hadn’t been for Brandon’s dog, we wouldn’t have known for awhile, till I started getting bigger and gaining weight. It was the easiest pregnancy. But then again, it was only my first one so I didn’t really have another to compare it to! I threw up once after eating a Subway breakfast sandwich. The other times I threw up was from being in shock that I was pregnant and couldn’t believe it.
Then 40 weeks and 5 days later, our precious daughter of 7lbs and 1oz. appeared! She was 5 days past her due date! Of course, she’s a girl so she had to be fashionably late! 😛 And then she decided to get stuck; she really didn’t want to come out yet! 😀 So we went to emergency c-section. She came out just fine and healthy and that’s what mattered!
Being a girl mom is fun and I love it! I love being a mom! I remember when she could first say “I love you”, it melted our hearts. It still does, four years later.
And then about a year and a half later, we are pregnant again! We find out the week of my birthday that I am pregnant, I had a feeling I was pregnant, and then we found out for sure on October 25th, 2019! Being a mom to one child was great and fun and yet, still tiring, and here we were about to have a second child to be able to chase around!
This pregnancy was a lot more difficult than the first. Shocking, right?! 😛 This was at the beginning of the pandemic, before everything shut down. So it was hard to find a job, and when I did get a job, it was hard to work. Because of where he was laying and how he was laying, he was on some sort of nerve or something, so just about every time I moved, it hurt. I was in a lot of pain. So after just a few weeks of having a job, I had to quit because it was too painful. The job I was working at didn’t really care about the employees, either.
But with this one, we had a scheduled c-section because of the first one and they didn’t want to risk anything happening. I wanted to do a natural birth, but wasn’t able to. It’s okay though, he came out healthy and beautiful just like our first!
C-sections are hard. They are not the easy way out. It’s harder on the moms too, because even though some are scheduled, you still cannot hold your baby after they cut the baby out of you. I thought that since it was a scheduled one this time, I would. I didn’t get to see him, until after they’d cleaned him up and everything. I bawled when I saw him. He literally looked perfect. And I could still only see him a minute before they had to take him back and do some more stuff.
Our beautiful baby boy, at a whopping 8lbs and 13oz. He was definitely a big boy! And the most beautiful baby boy I had ever seen! Still is! He is a complete mama’s boy, and I wouldn’t have it any other way! ❤ I love having a mama’s boy!!
We were so excited to be going to our room with our son. And we couldn’t wait to get home and have him meet his big sister!
I have loved watching them grow up! I also hate watching them grow up! Sometimes I want them to just stay little forever! But I know that they can’t. They are best friends right now, and I hope they stay best friends and that they will protect each other!
So what does it meant to me to be a mom?! It means everything to me. Some days are harder than others. Some days, I just want to crawl into a corner and cry. Some days, you’d think I have all my ducks in a row, and I actually would. Not very often, but sometimes! 😛 I love being a mom! Do I need a break sometimes still? Yes. But I wouldn’t trade my children for anything! ❤
Days can be super hard sometimes. I’ve been struggling recently with different things, and it can affect how I am a mom to our kids. I shouldn’t let it, but sometimes I do. Life is hard. I post the happy moments, but that does not mean that every moment is happy. No one likes to post the sad and depressing moments, because usually they are trying to get attention. If I post something about life being hard or what not, it’s to show that life isn’t always rainbows and sunshine – life can hurt. Life can sometimes suck! 😛 But we keep going and we don’t give up. And my reason why is in the picture below (and pictures above).
Happy Mother’s Day!
And if you ever need anything, don’t hesitate to reach out to me! We are here for each other! Us, moms, gotta be there for each other! ❤
Adventures Of Motherhood 