During these last couple of years, I have been through a lot. We have all been through a lot, including a global pandemic. Life has been crazy. I have been through multiple jobs, some good and some not so good. Let’s just go back since I started school. It has been a little over a year, seventeen months. Just shy of a year and a half. Right before I started school, I lost someone who I thought was my best friend. I started school. It was crazy stressful while trying to figure out online school, and trying to find a job, then the country going into a lockdown. Then it was even harder to find a job. It was super stressful because I was a mother and pregnant (Pre-quarantine baby)! There were/are so many things that I want to do. During this last year and a half, while in school, I was/am a wife, mother, student, pregnant lady, dog mom, housewife, so many things. I was stressed that I wouldn’t pass my classes. Especially with this pregnancy being so much harder on me. I was almost in constant pain. Oliver was in just the right spot on one of my nerves, and didn’t move from the spot very often, I was always in pain. But when you are a mom and wife, I still had things that needed to be done like cleaning and playing with our daughter, and I had to work through the pain, no matter how bad it was. I cried many times, very often when I was alone and no one was around to see or hear me cry.
I have been through many jobs in my life, some of which did not last very long. I felt like a terrible wife and mom because I couldn’t keep a job. Not because I was a bad worker, per se, but because it was not the job that I wanted for the rest of my life. I would love to be a stay-at-home mom but still work and bring in money for bills and what not. But that is hard to do. I have a few businesses that I am working. But I am a horrible salesperson, and I try not to guilt people into buying something from me and I try not to push them to buy something from me. That tends to push people even farther away from you, even your friends. If you want to know anything about the products or company that I am with, I am happy to tell you anything! I hardly ever bring it up first unless we are talking about something that they need and that company offers what will help with what they need. But even then, it sounds like I’m trying to push you to buy from me. But honestly, I only “push” things on people that I know will help someone, or that I know they will love. Because I love it! I don’t sell anything that I don’t love or use myself.
I sell Monat, which is the number one haircare brand in the country. I also sell Arbonne, which is a makeup, nutrition, skincare, bath and body, and so much more! These are my two favorite company’s and they have the best products that really work! They are not a pyramid scheme. But anyway, I can’t do only these businesses and not work somewhere else where I know I am getting a paycheck. Because I do use these products but I don’t post about it or promote it, per se. The products I use are in the pictures that I take, when I take a picture with my kids or my husband, because I use the shampoo and it can be seen but I don’t post what I use in every single post. I don’t say things like “And the reason my hair looks amazing is because I use my Monat…and it can help your hair too!” type things. I do share it and that is what network marketing is, sharing what you love and use. But it doesn’t get very much traffic for me. I don’t know if I just don’t know what to say to capture people’s attention or what. So that is why I am still working at a job. I am currently delivering pizza, which honestly I love doing. It is still not what I want to do with the rest of my life, but it is helping pay the bills!
Anyway, this blog post is not about trying to sell you anything, it just popped into my head about what I do and how I wear many ‘hats’ in life and how those things could help me stay home with my kids and still bring in income, but how I fail at that, too. I have felt like a failure so many times this last year, not just in my work but in/with my family, too. We went through some rough times, but we made it through. It still isn’t always easy, but when you work together, it is easier.
I have just recently finished my schooling, and will have my degree in May! I had planned to be done in December of 2020, but that didn’t happen. That’s okay. As long as you keep going and you don’t give up, that is what matters. Slow progress is still progress! I now have a bachelors degree in Criminal Psychology! Still not completely sure what I want to do. There are so many things. But since I do have a family, what I want to do wouldn’t necessarily be the best or safest thing for my family for multiple reasons. Plus, I would have to go away for at least six months for the academy, and I will really don’t want to be away from my family. So there’s that.
So I am still figuring out what I am going to do. I have thought of doing teaching at home, so then I can stay at home and have my own schedule and know that I am bringing in money for the family. Just need to get through the hiring process and teaching demos and such, which did need a bachelors degree(in anything). I am a big family person, so if there is something that I can do to be able to stay home with our kids and still bring in money and know that I am bringing in money, I am all for that! At least for now. Maybe when the kids get older, I may be able to do something with my psychology degree. So it may not be as exciting as what I wanted to do growing up, but dreams can change. And I have one of my dreams already – my family! My handsome husband and two beautiful children, and our three dogs!
It still feels surreal that I actually passed all my classes with a 3.1 GPA at that!! I am a horrible test taker! But with the support of my husband and my family, I made it through with only a few scratches, bruises and many many tears!!
Thank you everyone for supporting me through this blog! I do want to have more time to write my blog too! So when I figure everything out, if/when I start the teaching thing and figure out a routine and schedule for that, I will be putting time for my writing on the schedule also! It is important to put time aside for things that you enjoy doing, whether it is quiet time for yourself so you can breathe and just relax for a minute or two. Take that time! And no matter what, don’t give up! Don’t give up on yourself and your WHY for what you are doing!
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