Is it really worth it? Is what we do really worth it? Do we even know what we are doing? I’m not talking about motherhood right now. I’m just talking about life, in general. Sometimes we do things just because, and have no reason for doing them. Maybe we did at first, but now we just do it. I love life, but lately, I feel like I have no motivation to do much anymore. In the past few months, it’s been a bit depressing, for lack of a better word. I’ve been trying to be happy and let things that bother me just roll off me, but it’s been hard.
I want to work, I want to be able to stay at home and work. Still bring in income to provide for the family and pay the bills. It’s hard to find jobs that one CAN really stay at home with and still bring in an income. A decent income. I have tried so many things. I am still trying different things. I’ve tried contacting people and not getting anything back, and I’m just on the verge of giving up.
I’m usually the one lifting others up and encouraging and telling others not to give up, but this time it is me. I’m the one about to give up. Have you heard the quote “The prettiest smile hide the deepest secrets. The prettiest eyes have cried the most tears. And the kindest hearts have felt the most pain.”? I’m not saying all those things are me (the prettiest eyes, and smile and heart and such), but I do try to be there for everyone, if they need a friend and someone to talk to and such, I’m there. I go out of my way for people, and some of them know it and take advantage of it. Unfortunately. But anyway, I have things going on to, I need to be encouraged too. I feel pain too, I just don’t tell anyone and I don’t really talk to anyone about it because I don’t want to bother anyone with my troubles and/or I don’t want to add something to someone else while they’re going through something. Even if that’s what happens to me, and I just hide it. I don’t want them to have to hide what they’re going through with me, just because I bring some insecurities or something that I’m feeling.
That’s what friends and family are for. To be there for you when you need it. They are there for more than just that, but that’s one of the reasons. Life isn’t always easy. I’m being very transparent here. I don’t tell many people this, I just really could use a friend right now. But you know what, I probably still won’t share this post, because I don’t want to bother anyone or make anyone feel like I’m super depressed and losing my mind. Which I’m not losing my mind, I promise. Everyone just has some rough days. We all need something to talk to, to be there for us. Not have everyone go to you for everything they have and need to talk to someone about. That someone is usually me. Which i don’t mind. I love helping people and being there for others.
Sometimes, I just need someone to be there for me, even if it’s just to give me a hug (and a million dollars haha) and tell me it’s going to be okay. I was kidding about the million dollars part. Mostly! 😛
Ever feel like you just lack some motivation? Like, you have motivation, but you don’t, at the same time!? Like there are so many things that I want to do. I want to do so many things; they don’t allow me to stay home, and they consist of more schooling and more money. Money that we don’t have, and schooling that we don’t exactly have the money or the time for. I would love to go back to school for Forensics or music, or photography! haha. But that just isn’t possible. Plus, they’re all completely different from each other. Have pretty much nothing in common with each other. Photography can kind of have something to do with forensics, with taking pictures of evidence and such, but yeah. I have so many interests, that it’s just a bit hard. And I’d love to be able to do something from home, but there isn’t too much that you can do from home and make a decent income with. But I’m still trying. I’m not giving up, even though I may want to. I am trying to be strong for my family.
Yesterday was Father’s Day, and my husband is a great daddy to our little girl! I love watching them together! They play together! He’ll chase her around the house and she just giggles and laughs! And I love it! I love creating these memories together! I really am blessed!!! 
I do talk to my husband, we just both have a lot of things going on in life. All good, it’s just been a rough year. But God is Still Good! We are blessed! I have been blessed with my amazing family! To be honest, I never thought I would have a family of my own. But God had other plans and I am so glad He did! I love my family so so much! They are some of the most precious things to me in my life! I would do anything for them! 
I am doing okay, I could just use some prayers, if you all don’t mind! Thank you! Well, this blog post did start off kind of rocky and depressing, but I am doing better now. It helps to actually talk about it and yes, even share it. And when I think of my family, I know that even though everything may not be going exactly as we planned or wanted, it will all work out. and I have an amazing family by my side! God has a plan for everything! And if you all have any prayer requests or just want to talk, don’t hesitate to message me! 🙂 Hope you all have a great week! I hope this encourages someone also! It may be hard now, but don’t give up! God is there with you, Always! And if you feel like you don’t have anyone to talk to, talk to God! And if you still need someone to talk to, I’m here!! Anytime!! I love you all!!!
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