I’m exhausted… and I feel like a terrible mother and wife because I’m so exhausted and sometimes don’t feel like doing anything. Like at all. I know everyone has their moments, but I still feel like the worst person in the world. My husband deserves so much more, and I feel like such a disappointment to him, as a wife. I’m not going to give up, but sometimes I feel like it.
Have you ever been just so exhausted, you’re not even sure if you’re functioning correctly? Well, sometimes you feel like that, especially when you’re a mom. I have been so exhausted, that I literally don’t feel like doing anything. I know I should, but I usually choose not to do anything. I want to just relax and do nothing. That’s usually the time that our baby decides to cry, wake up or just decide she wants to be held, and what not.
Sometimes I want to come home and just do nothing, have nothing to clean, literally nothing to do. But It’s never going to happen; not anymore. I love Anna, and saying all this will probably make me sound like a horrible mom. I love my family, I love my husband, our little girl!! They are both the most precious things to me in my life. I wouldn’t give them up or trade them for anything.
Not only is being a mom super exhausting, but it is also super rewarding. If we don’t work at something, what do we get from it? Usually nothing. Being a mom is awesome! It means less sleep, but it also means having a chance to have a legacy, having fun with your daughter or son. Getting to watch them grow and reach those milestones, although it is hard to watch them grow, it is also easy and fun to watch them grow.
Our little Anastasia is growing up so fast, but that is what children do. They grow. Everything grows at some point. Sometimes I feel like she is growing like a weed (super fast and every day). I feel like if I blink, I will miss it. And I know that in the blink of an eye, she will be going off to college, and finding a husband, and moving to a new home to start her own family. But we will be there for her every time we can.
It is still crazy to think sometimes that I am a mom; but it is amazing! I honestly never thought I’d be here. A wife. A mom. It is all a dream. But It’s also not a dream, it’s real. God has been so good to me and my little family. He blessed me with the best parents I could have ever asked for. And I hope that we are half of what my parents have been to me, to our little Anastasia!
They say the first year of marriage is always the hardest. Which it was rough at times, but we made it through. Marriage is important to us. It’s not a 50/50 thing, it’s a 100/100. We each give 100%, we don’t give less. We do have a little one during that first year which didn’t make it easy, but we wouldn’t trade her for anything. We love our little Princess.
Do you ever wish that you could go back and change something? Whether it was something you said or did, the way you said it, or that you even said it at all? Even if it was just recently…you know you shouldn’t have said it. I’ve been having those recently…but God is so Good! We have been so blessed in our marriage, in our family. I love Brandon so much!
We have the cutest pups who love Anna so much. They just want to be near her now and make sure she’s okay. Especially the bigger one, we’re pretty sure she’s going to be Anna’s dog once she gets big enough to play with the dogs. 🙂 
Our pups love her!! They’re very protective of her! As are we! We are so blessed, not even kidding.
I always say at the end of my blogs, that if there’s anything you want me to pray for you about, I will…And I’m still saying that, I just would like y’all to pray for us also; if you think about it. We would appreciate it so much. Thank you! I love you all, and thank you so much for reading this and for supporting me! Maybe someday I’ll be a ‘famous’ blogger! 😛
Adventures Of Motherhood 