Being a mom is not a “half-hearted” thing. It is an all or nothing. If you’re not going to put much into being a mom, you shouldn’t really be a mom. If you were just messing around, and don’t want children, don’t do it. Or at least put the baby up for adoption, or maybe you have a friend or family member that has wanted children but can’t, give the child to them. Someone who will put everything into the child to make sure they have a good home, and someone who will take their time for the baby!
I’m not saying that you won’t put the time in, if it were to happen, I’m just saying that it takes a lot of work to have a child and to be a mom. It’s not easy. It is very worth it, but it’s not always easy. It will get harder as they get older, in their teenage years. My little girl is only a little over three months old, but I know it gets harder in the teenage years.
I wasn’t always the best daughter, and yet, my amazing mom never gave up on me. She was always there for me, even though I disappointed her many times, I’m sure. I’m so thankful for my mom (and dad)!! They have been amazing parents and grandparents! 
When my mom was here, when we were waiting to have our baby at the hospital. She was there for me. She was there when we went out walking up (a ton) of hills. But we did have fun with it! We laughed, we made memories. My mom (and dad) aren’t big picture takers. But I try to take a picture with them every chance I get, even if it’s just through FaceTime and I take a screenshot. I love those memories. I will cherish them forever. 
When my mom was here, after our precious Anastasia came, and after being in the hospital five days after and recovering, and finally being able to have Anastasia (“Anna”) in our room after being discharged from the NICU – my mom was finally able to see the baby in person! I love seeing my mom holding a little baby! And it meant even more to me to see her holding my little girl. I took so many pictures of them together! I take a lot of pictures anyway! I love taking pictures, and having those memories on print! We may remember them later, but I love looking at the still-picture of little Anna smiling up at my mom! It seriously melts my heart! And smiling up at her daddy! I love it! There are no words to describe what we felt when we first our baby on the outside. And when we could hold her for the first time. Really hold her!
Brandon couldn’t hold her in the NICU for the first day or two, only I could for skin-to-skin contact. One night we had a male nurse, and he allowed Brandon to hold her, and to see his face when he got to hold her… Even before he held her, when. the nurse said he could hold her, his face just lit up like a Christmas tree (when all the lights work haha)! And to see him holding his daughter, our daughter…my heart melted! Brandon is such a great daddy! It takes more than just a mom to be a parent. Children need both parents in their lives.
When they don’t have both parents in their lives, the child(ren) miss it. They always have questions about why they don’t have a mom or dad, and where they are and what not. Yes, there are some great single parents out there, and there are legitimate reasons for why some are single parents – they may have lost their spouse unexpectedly, and what not. There are reasons for it, but a child NEEDS BOTH parents.
I love my husband so much, and I fall even more for him when I see him with our daughter! Even if we didn’t have little Anna, nothing would change how I feel about him. Brandon is my person. I am so thankful for him, I wouldn’t trade anything for him. Brandon and Anna are my family! 
It’s still weird, sometimes, that I actually have my own little family. But it’s one of the best things ever!! I may not always be the best mom, but I will always do my best and give it everything I have! Being a mom and wife – I give my everything to! I hope one day, when Anna grows up and she becomes a mom someday, she will be able to look back and say that I was the best mom, like I do with my mom. And that Brandon was the best dad! We may not be perfect, but we are doing our best! And we will ALWAYS do our best!
We are so thankful for our little girl! I thank God for her and for Brandon every day!!! I am so blessed! God is So Good!!!
Again, thank you for reading my blogs, I know I’ve been a little behind the past few weeks, but I hope to get back in the swing of things and write more. If you have any questions or just want to talk, need a friend, have any prayer requests, I’m here for you.
Have a great day!!

