Four weeks ago today, I was in the hospital in labor. Labor is not an easy thing. I am so thankful and blessed that Brandon was there!! He was amazing! He was there for me through it all! I’m so glad God gave me my husband!
Time really does fly! Like I said, four weeks ago, I was in the hospital. Our baby girl will be a month old in three days. That is just crazy to think about! I can’t believe she has been on the outside of me for almost a whole month! I don’t know about you, but I’m still trying to wrap my mind around that! It doesn’t seem like long, but with a baby – well, it still doesn’t seem like long, because sometimes it feels like just yesterday, I was at the hospital to have her. It really is crazy how fast time flies!
Sometimes I may want to put her in her cradle or little bouncer seat or on the couch, so I can get some things done around the house, but I also want to hold her at the same time. I do have a little carrier thing, but even with that, I’m still kind of limited with things that I can do around the house, with movement and such. Sometimes though, the holding her does win over the putting her down and letting the house wait a little longer to be cleaned or straightened up.
These moments won’t last forever; she will grow up and not want to be held anymore – this way, she can’t tell me to put her down, because then sometimes she does cry because she does want to be held! That won’t last forever! Some days, she may not even want to be near me, or at least not in the same room. Although she may keep us up at night sometimes, I am treasuring every moment I can with our little girl.
It is still taking some getting used to calling her my daughter when I talk to others about her and such, but in a good way! I still can’t believe I have a daughter! She’s mine! I have a daughter! It really is amazing what the body can do – I mean, your body can grow another human baby inside you! How amazing and crazy is that!?!? Yes, it is painful at the end, but it really is worth it! I find myself looking down at my daughter while I’m holding her, or even just when she’s sleeping (Yes, I watch her sleep!), it’s just so precious and they look so peaceful when they’re sleeping. But anyway, I find myself looking at her, and I’m just in awe of how awesome God is and how thankful I am that He gave Brandon and I our little Anastasia! Which her name means “Resurrection” – which I think is actually kind of funny, since we just had Easter! He is Risen!
For those who don’t know and since I’ve been asked many times (and no, I don’t mind being asked), we got her name from my family. It was my great grandmother’s name, and my name Stacie is a derivative of Anastasia, and my mom said that sometimes she wishes she named me Anastasia and just called me ‘Stacie’ for short, but she didn’t. I’ve always loved the name Anastasia since I was little! It is not from the princess movie ‘Anastasia’, although I do love that movie, that is not where we got the name!
Before we know it, Anna (what we call Anastasia for short) will be one year old, or two years old, she’ll be middle school, high school, going off to college, getting married, and we will have so many memories with her. And we are going to cherish all the memories we can. So many times nowadays, many people don’t care about treasuring the memories with anyone. Even with our children. I don’t know about you, but I want to be there for every memory that I can be. I will be her cheerleader, her best friend (hopefully), someone that she can come to with anything (especially since I’m her mother), I hope she’ll come to me when she needs something or needs or wants to talk.
I want my daughter to know that Brandon and I will be there for her whenever she needs us! As long as God allows us, which we hope is for quite a while! We love her so much! It’s true what they say, you really can’t remember what it was like before you had them. I couldn’t remember what it was to not be pregnant, I thought I had been pregnant for forever! Now I can remember what it was like to not have our little girl! We love having her on the outside!
I loved having her on the inside and feeling her move inside me, and all the tickles and flutters she gave me! But I love having her on the outside also! Seeing her move her arms around and the little noises she makes – they’re the cutest! I love everything about her!!
Cherish those memories, because you truly never know how much longer you will have. We don’t know what tomorrow holds, but we know Who holds tomorrow. Treasure those memories! Have as many as you can!!
Adventures Of Motherhood 